try to make myself okay
try so hard to make the pieces all fit
smash it apart
just for the fuck of it
all-aboard-the-misery-machine:
“How Could I Ever Think It’s Funny
How Everything You Swore Would Never Change Is Different Now
Like You’d Said, “You And Me, We’d Make It Through”
Didn’t Quite, Fell Apart”
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XXxTi5EOh3U
Somewhat Damaged - Nine Inch Nails
It never gets better.
People don’t realize that I’ve been severely depressed for years now. Maybe since 2012.
I’ve held on for so long, and lost so much to it. No one really sees it, they see me laugh and smile and not give a shit. But that’s me doing my best to fight it. And sometimes I lose and completely relapse and hide from the world.
I don’t think I’ve got very much fight left in me. It’s been years, and sometimes it lets me be happy, but most of the time I’m fighting it.
What’s the point. No one cares, they’d just pity me.
(via iamquietlydrowning)
Forever…
X_X
